I know ur checking on me..
enjoy! but please, don't ENVY..

Just Think.

What If...
Every day was treated like a new beginning?

Where grudges, bitterness, unforgiveness, and worries died the moment your head hit the pillow. And at the time you had awaken to a new morning your mind would be renewed, not lacking knowledge or wisdom from the past, but building on what has been made from prior situations and circumstances.

Each person you'd come into contact with you'd treat like it had been the first time you'd met them and your first impression persona was at the top of it's game. Being kind, loving, unconditional in terms of your friendship in how things are done to show thanks. What if, we did things without having presumptuous intentions of wanting to be thanked for what we had done.

What if, we shared our gifts just out of love and never had the expectations of wanting to be loved in return, because we had the reassurance of knowing we're already loved regardless of what we do.

What if, our confidence was placed in something bigger then ourselves so that our dreams weren't limited to our own fears and insecurities.

What if, believing was reality?

...

so i admit i've been a huge bum lately. goofing off, hanging out with friends other peeps etc. and stuff, nothing productive in the get a job sense. i totally admit it, once i got a job as an english instructor. at first i thought its gonna be easy and cool as well. i always fascinate my teachers back in higschool. only the good one huh. and so there. i thought its gonna be fun. yea its is. first day 2nd day til 3rd day.then after that one week is like a year to me already. the same thing i dop everyday teach those lil koreans the prper grammar etc. there was a time that i do't even know what am i teaching. i have lerned that during my grade school and i was like, what the heck am i doing here? aside from that dealing with the koreans is not so easy. if i was rude and mean and so they are! bigtime! but not all of them. some are nice and friendly. but not my 5the studet. bin! the 6th grade idiotic girl! ugh. i know i should't be like this. but she's like.. i can't even describe her. she is so rude and mean. one time she's talking bad things about me in koreans. thank GOD i know some of their language. yea. i have to learned most especially tha bad languages. so that i would know if they are talking shits about me already.
well nwei enough with that. ive been in that company for a month. and i always want to comeback just to see my favorite students:)

ryt now. i am waiting for something. aside from waiting for the result.i'm also waiting for something i don't know. yea. stupid right. but when it comes. i know everything will turns right just what i want it to be=)

bored..

got nothing to do, so ill just upload some random pics with friends=)

hate..

im full of hate right now, i dont know whats going on inside me.. its like i hate everyone.. especially that beytach. i know I'm being childish or whatever coz i don't even know the woman i hate.. haha funny right! its her face that i hate actually. every time i see her its like im in a roller coaster or something.. i can't really explain the feelings. i actually want to post some of her pics here, but im afraid my blog will be removed. oopps i didn't say anything. LOL
i know i should keep my mouth shut and act as a lady, i shouldnt antagonize someone who has nothing to do with me, but what can i do?! i can't help to be a bitch=)
ok, so i guess that's it! from now on, i would stop hating her.. or i should have said i will just keep my mouth shut for d rest of my life.~,^

p.s

im not bein insucure in here.. its not like that. its just that i can't stand livin in the same planet with her. got me?!

YOU NEED A RIDE? (please read this. .believe me, ure not gonna regret it!)

BuS RiDe...


Love is like waiting for a bus.

When the bus comes, you look at it and you say to yourself, "eeee... so full .... cannot sit down, I'll wait for the next one."

So you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.
Then the second bus came, you looked at it you said,
"eeee...this bus is so old...so shabby!"

So you let the bus go and again, decided to wait for the next bus. After a while another bus came, it's not crowded, not old but you said, "eeee...not air conditioned ...better wait for the next one."

So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus. Then the sky started to get dark as it was getting late. You panicked and jumped immediately inside the next bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus! And you wasted your time and money just to get into the wrong one! Even if an air conditioned bus comes, you can't ensure that the air conditioned bus won't break down or whether or not the airconditioner will be too cold for you.

Wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance.
If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you just press the red button and get off the bus! Hey, who said life is fair?!?
The best thing to do is be observant and open-minded. If it doesn't suit you, get off.

I'm sure you've had this experience before.
You saw a bus coming (the bus you want of course). You flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not see you and zoomed pass you! It just wasn't meant for you!

The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating the bus by giving it a chance depends totally on you. If you haven't made any choice, WALK!

Walking is like being single. The good side of it is you can still choose any bus you want. The rest who couldn't afford another ride would just have to be content with the bus they rode on, ugly or not.

Also, sometimes it is better to choose a bus you are already familiar with rather than to gamble with a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then again, life wouldn't be complete without the risks involved.

But there is one bus that I failed to tell you about -
the Bus you do not have to wait for, the Bus that will stop on its own and ask you if you wish to come inside, then take you for a joy ride for the rest of your life. Hope you get to ride on that bus...

life...

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away, that they were meant to be there... to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection, you realize that without overcoming those obstacles, you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power, or heart. Everything happens
for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity, all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience, can create who you are and the bad experiences, can belearned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn..=)

'xxx